Sunday, January 22, 2012

Choosing people to emulate

Sometimes I pick a person that I consider my "organizing idol" I think, "if I could just think like they did, I could change my life." Today I heard someone discussing how she was moving her husband's medical office from one place to another. She sounded so purposefully busy that I wished I was her. I feel like there's something about me that does not allow me to go out and do what I am supposed to do. Sometimes I feel like I lack the skills to do things I need to do. I wonder, why do I feel so helpless when others can accomplish so much? Is it simply not really wanting to do things, inertia in getting started, or really the inability, that stops me? I have touched on all these topics before. I have been reading books (two that I recently go from the library) about mind management/time management. Although they weren't much help to me, they both touched on the idea that changing your mind is a habit like others and it's more comfortable for us to do what we have always done. I know that so well. There is a need for me to get out of my rut but a strong resistance. When someone asks me to do something, I often dig in my heels. I want to change that way of thinking.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Inertia

Sometimes I move very slowly. It takes me a long time to do one thing. Realizing this, I sometimes set challenges for myself. It has taken me the good part of an hour to clear the top of my dresser. Once again, FEAR of losing something important is what caused me to take so much time.